"Magnetizing Inrush"
[Date Stamp: January 25, 2001.]
In a state of flux:
Everything is always changing
When you're rearranging
Your life to fit the box
Residual flux:
Nothing is fully custom made
Time and dreams will always fade
Into the void of the box
Hold me down if you care
Solidly grounded and
aware
Apply a voltage and let
it sear my skin
Let me feel the current
rushing in
And lighting me up
You light me up
You always light me up
I need you to light me up
Keep lighting me up
We need the light to carry on
Transient theory:
Everything is always changing
When you're rearranging
Your life for them and me
Magnetic theory:
Nothing is fully custom made
Time and dreams will always fade
Into the impedance of me
"Step One?"
[Date Stamp: April 27, 2001.]
Who am I to wait forever?
When do you perceive an
answer?
And I have seen
The greatest of dreams
Where life wasn't deemed
A test of our means
And this was all we'd ever know
Please tell me I'll be here tomorrow
Why do we wait here forever?
For an answer He may
never deliver
With rewards unseen
The purist of dreams
Where our lives will be
All a fantasy
And I have seen
The greatest of dreams
Where life wasn't deemed
A test of our means
And this was all we'll ever know
Tell me I'll be here tomorrow
Please tell me I'll be here tomorrow
What is the soul?
Is there life beyond
or...
Is this all we'll ever know?
Tell me I'll be here tomorrow
Please tell me I'll be here tomorrow
"Everything is Good"
[Date Stamp: April 13, 2001.]
Everything I know is good today, I swear
All in all, I feel I'm
fully aware
I swear it's all the same
But I will take the blame
There's no one left to
shame
Won't ever be afraid
"Star-Delta Connection"
[Date Stamp: January 25, 2001.]
Y
Why do
Why do you transfer your
misery onto me
Y
Why do
Why do you force your
decisions onto me
When the stars
In the sky
Are aware of our presence
Aware of our lives
Is it all
We can do
To stay together
When we're obviously not meant to?
D
Despair
Disparity in all that we
believe and try
D
Despair
Disparity in love and
loss and the answer why
When the stars
See the lies
And tear us apart, kindly
Sever our ties
Is it all
We can do
To stay together
When we're obviously not meant to?
Do you
Believe
That life isn't over
Until it's conceived?
Sometime
When it's cold
We'll be together
And destroy those who
stand bold
Do you
Believe
In life after death
Now what would that mean?
That I
Would never
Escape from the tether
Forever and ever, and
ever? Never?
Never?
"What's a Catch-22?"
[Date Stamp: October 3, 2000.]
Heavy
I'm feeling so down and
heavy
Levitate me
Let me feel a weightless
state
For a change
For when it all comes down
It all comes down hard
For when it all hits the ground
It's an earthquake of sound
And I... wish to be there for you
But I... need to be here for me
It's a... catch-22
And I... don't even know what that means
Empty
I'm feeling so worthless
and empty
Rebuild me
Let me be a new man and
dream
Of a change
For when the hand comes down
The judge comes down harsh
For when it all hits the ground
It's an earthquake of sound
"Resonance"
[Date Stamp: June 19, 2001.]
All
The whispers intend to
beat on the head
All
The sentences end with
words better left unsaid
Words better left unsaid
All the children have fled
From fear of the unknown
From fear of the left behind
From fear of the resonating, palpitating, beating on the mind
Slavish devotion to painful emotion
It's a resonating sonic explosion
All
The whimpers intend to
pound on the head
All
The utterances end with
words better left unsaid
Words better left unsaid
Now all the stars have fled
From fear of the reborn
From fear of the redesigned
From fear of the resonating, palpitating, pounding on the mind
Slavish devotion to painful emotion
It's a resonating sonic explosion
Stringent repression of rippled depression
It's a resonating sonic explosion
All
Words better left unsaid
"The Curl"
[Date Stamp: April 18, 2001.]
I feel better than
I've ever felt before
I walk with confidence
I've never felt before
Just a little curl
That's all it took
Just a little curl
To give me that necessary
push
It's an attitude thing!
"The Lesson: Never Try"
[Date Stamp: May 8, 2001.]
Everything you do
You know you
Lose
Everything we see
You know we
Lose
So I try and I try and I try
And I fail, I fail, yes, I fail
Over and over again
I'm a loser and I have finally learned
Trying is the first step towards failure
So I just won't try
Everything I try
You know I
Lose
So I try and I try and I try
And I fail, I fail, yes, I fail
Over and over again
I'm a loser and I have finally learned
Trying is the first step towards failure
So I'm not gonna try
So never try
"The Fine Art of
Breathing"
[Date Stamp: June 2, 2001.]
Your God's a high profile Santa Claus
Yet without any of the
fringe benefits
I'm too old now to
believe such lies
And I'm not concerned
about eternal gifts
What has... He done... for me?
What does... belief do... for me?
Tell me how it'll help me to breathe
Tell me how it'll help me be me
Life, death, God's will? Now let's pause
And rethink the stories
that brought us to this
It takes faith to entrust
a life to lies?
But I never had any faith
to begin
And I'm still breathing
Despite not believing
"Alone"
[Date Stamp: June 14, 2001.]
Wait for me to die again
I don't want to be there
Wait for the sun to rise
again
I won't want to be here
Oh, I walk away again
I know I can't belong
It's only what we sow
It's everything that we
know
Oh, leave me alone
Wait for life to fly again
I don't want to be here
Wait for the sun to set
again
I won't want to be there
Oh, it's every word you said
I see I won't belong
It's always what we sow
It's everything that we
know
Oh, leave me alone
Leave me alone
'Til night has passed
It's all going by so fast
And all I can do
Is hold on to... who?
Who can I hold on to?
"Je Souhaite"
[Date Stamp: March 19, 2001]
Forever the answer
Discovered without proper
Analysis of the true form
Rip through the cancer
Pursued without further
Discussion of the storm
It's a feeling of nothing
Nothing is as it should be
Et je souhaite...
Got this feeling of nothing
Nothing is as it should be
Et je souhaite
It would not be this way
Forever the pusher
No regrets without proper
Analysis of the results
Rip through the wisher
No concern for the hunter
Life in the saddest cults
It should not be this way
Je souhaite...
It wasn't this way...
"A Window to the World"
[Date Stamp: May 7, 2001.]
Hey, it's really late, so
Hey, let me make my
Way, out the door to
Say, there's no time left
Today
Do you know me?
Do you claim some hold on me?
Do you want to break me?
Always claiming you own me
Now I
Have been here for too long
It's a misty window
Flowing candle
Won't you send me
Home
Hey, it's been great, so
Hey, it's time I go
Away, through the window
Pane, into world wide
Rain
Do you know me?
You claim some hold on me
Do you want to break me?
Always claiming you own me
Now I
Have been here for too long
It's a misty window
Flowing candle
This world's a spindle
Without handle
Hold on, I'm going
Home
